I’m back….to running that is! It’s been a long road of recovery after surgery, and it’s going to be an even longer road in getting back to running normally.
I’ve missed running so much. There have been times in the last few months when I have needed it more than I ever thought I would. There have been times when I have physically craved it (I’ve seriously had dreams that I was running). I needed the run for my sanity and for a release from anxiety. I needed it as a way to cope with all of the pain and emotions that I have been feeling. But I couldn’t have it. And that just made everything that much harder. But, I’m back now and am full of excitement and determination to get back in shape and be out there as much as possible.
As of January 1, I was officially cleared to “attempt to run”. (Doctor’s words) From the beginning, he wasn’t sure that I would be back running at all. So, when he finally agreed to let me try to run, that just fueled my determination (and hard headedness) to get back out there. He did warn me that there is a pretty good chance that I won’t be running all the miles and long distances like I was before. While that will be disappointing (if it turns out to be true), I will take what I can get!
January 1st and 2nd were way too cold for me to be out. I’m a big baby when it comes to being cold, and even though I had been counting down the days until I could run, since the temps were in the single digits I put it off for a couple of days.
The Big Day
January 3rd, the temps were back up in the 30’s so I bundled up and headed out. At least it was sunny! I decided to stay close to home because up to this point I hadn’t done any kind of jumping, running, or anything that might hurt my foot. I really didn’t know what to expect. All I knew was that I had to take it slow. As soon as I started, there was so much pain, and at the same time it felt so good. Every time I landed on my foot, it hurt. But the cold wind in my face helped me breathe easier and run through it. I easily found my stride and made sure to go A LOT slower than I normally would. After about a quarter of a mile, the pain came less and less. I figured since I hadn’t run since the end of June that I would be extremely out of shape. But, that mile passed by before I knew it and I never felt the need to stop. I just wanted to push harder and go faster, but I knew better than to do that. I didn’t want to overdo it on my first try. Plus I was freezing and my foot felt like it was locked up and needed to pop.
I was pretty satisfied with my one mile. The doctor warned me to go slow. He told me that I needed to go a whole lot slower than whatever I think is slow. He advised me to just listen to my foot and not try and push the recovery. Once I got home, I propped it up and iced it. It was sore for about an hour afterwards, but the next day I was walking just fine.
I ran again on Friday. I ran a mile with Jake and I did just fine with no pain during or after. But, I think I overdid it when I ran again on Saturday. The weather was just too gorgeous to be stuck inside and I wanted to run so badly. My foot didn’t start hurting until about a 1/2 mile in, so I stopped and walked. Once it quit, I started again. I wasn’t able to go very much further without pain, so I ended up walking/slowly jogging until I hit a mile. I had been hoping to be able to get two miles in. But, that didn’t happen. I was disappointed when I had to quit. The amount of pain I felt the whole rest of the day, all night long, and all day today told me that I tried to do way to much, way to fast. I’ll definitely slow down even more. I’m not going to attempt another run until the pain from Saturday’s run is completely gone.
It’s going to be a long road back to where I was. I’m going into this without any expectations. If I’m not able to run as much as I was before, I will run whatever I can. I’m just so thankful that I can run! My plan right now is to very slowly work on adding more mileage and just see how my foot feels during and after each run. I’m not going to have a set schedule or a set number of miles each week, I’m just going to listen to my foot and make sure that I don’t overdo it. I’m excited to be back out there doing what I love, and hopefully will get to run some races (for fun) later this year.
It’s good to be back! Happy Running Friends!