The Struggle is Real

Hi everyone!  Welcome to this week’s edition of Thinking out Loud.  I’m linking up with Amanda from Running with Spoons.  My topic this week is another pretty random, yet very specific topic.  But, I’m going to build on this and eventually write an entire post about this thought.  Today my thoughts are all about peanut butter and the struggle to cut it out of my life! 

Before I get to the peanut butter, and since we’re on the topic of food, I want to ask you about this.  Is this white stuff on bread okay to eat?  I say that it’s the beginning of mold, but my husband says that it is part of the flour in the bread.  What do you think?  Would you eat it?  I took this picture 5 days before the expiration date. 

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I took this picture the day the bread expired. 

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What are your thoughts?

Now, let’s talk about peanut butter.  Peanut butter is my absolute all time favorite food.  (Well, Jif peanut butter and Smuckers strawberry jelly together, specifically.)  It always has been.  It’s my comfort food.  But, the thing with peanut butter is that it doesn’t agree with me.  If I eat it, I gain weight.  It doesn’t matter how much or how little I eat, I gain. 

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I love the rich and creamy flavor of Jif peanut butter.  I’m guilty of eating it right out of the jar.  That happened years ago

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Peanut butter is something that I literally cannot eat.  Not in moderation.  Not for a special treat.  Not ever.  Not any at all.  I obviously hate this because I love it so much!  I have tried PB2, and like it a lot.  I’ve tried other nut butters and do enjoy them.  But, they’re just not the same.  The reason for this talk is that this past week I was craving peanut butter.  It was the only thing that sounded good to eat.  Not one day, but two days in a row.  I finally gave in and ate a tiny bit, and the craving was gone.  (And now as I’m writing this, I’m wanting some now too!)  I feel like it’s an addiction.  I can’t get past it. 

I used to feel this way about donuts.  Growing up, I had donuts every Saturday.  Then, in high school and college we had donuts every weekend, sometimes both Friday and Saturday night.  Then I got in a habit of having one at least a couple of times a month.  But, once I really started on my weight loss journey and wanting to live a healthy life, I completely gave them up.  For a long time I didn’t crave them at all.  Then sometimes I would start thinking that I wanted one, so I would eat a half of a plain glazed donut to kill my craving.  That always worked and I was finally able to get rid of my cravings.  I honestly cannot tell you the last time I had a donut.  I do know that the last time I ate one it upset my stomach so much, so that’s probably why I haven’t wanted one in so long.  But, I was able to eat a donut every now and then and not gain weight.  I could eat them in moderation.  So, it wasn’t as big of a deal as the peanut butter. 

My questions for you are:  is there a food that you absolutely cannot eat, but you crave?  I’m sure people struggle with this with food allergies or for other reasons.  I just don’t know how to get rid of the craving.  Why is my body craving something that is obviously bad for it?   

I know that eating is all about balance and moderation.  I do treat myself to not so healthy foods, but I try to eat healthy the majority of the time.  My problem isn’t about moderation.  My problem is that I just want to eat all the peanut butter, but I can’t!!!

So seriously, how do you kill a craving for good?


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6 thoughts on “The Struggle is Real

  1. Heather @ Polyglot Jot

    I wouldnt eat that bread. Is your kitchen humid? Since its summer, maybe try keeping your bread in the fridge. It should last longer that way.

    So, you cant eat peanut butter because lack of control or because it hurts your stomach? Does any amount of it hurt your stomach?

    I think if you cut something out completely only for the sake of being healthy, maybe thats too much and I think you should eat some peanut butter if you love it so much! 🙂
    However if you cut it out because it makes you feel sick or upsets your digestion etc. I think that could be cause for cutting it out completely.

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      It doesn’t upset my stomach, I just gain weight. I love it soooooo much!! I’m sure that’s why I crave it because I don’t allow myself to eat it at all. I just wish I didn’t like it! lol

      1. Heather @ Polyglot Jot

        gotcha, i know its so hard. I love peanut butter too and i recently bought some runnier peanut butter. You eat less because its runnier but it still feels like you’re eating a lot!

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          What brand is it?

  2. San

    I’m with your husband… the “white stuff” looks like flour to me… unless there is something green and hairy on my bread, I am pretty convinced it’s just baked in flour.

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      LOL well he ate it and it didn’t do anything. So I guess it was flour. If there’s not a lot of white stuff I’ll eat it too.

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