Ok, I have a confession to make. It really kills me to say it, but it’s the truth. So here it is: I am just not
into running right now.
I can’t believe I’m actually saying that! For me, coming back after being injured is harder than just starting out. I am unmotivated, and I am also extremely worried about being re-injured if I do too much. I have to force myself out the door. Once I’m out the door, I usually do fine, but it’s just getting out the door! The Pile on the Miles challenge has helped to get me out the door. I did have days where it hurt and I just walked, and days that it hurt so bad that I took a rest day.
Used to I would schedule everything around my run, and I was excited to do it. And, I would get annoyed if I wasn’t going to have much time to fit one in. But now, I dread it! If I’m short on time, instead of running faster, I cut it short, or just don’t do it. I don’t know if it’s because I’m just too much in my head and I have made it all mental, or if it’s because I have no end goal. I am really getting frustrated with myself because I want to be able to run the amount of miles that I was before I was hurt. (I know I have to work up to that, and the only way to do it is to run more.)
I think I really want to start training for something – anything. I just need a goal to work towards that will help me get back in the right frame of mind. The only thing that is holding me back is that I know I’m not 100% yet, and I don’t want to set a goal and start training for it and then get hurt again and not be able to do it.
I have been thinking the last week a lot about this, and I know the goal I’m choosing is probably the craziest one that I could set. But, I am really thinking about starting training for a full marathon. Part of me is saying this is absolutely crazy because I know my body is not fully healed. I’m almost laughing at myself thinking why not set a goal of a 10K. But the other part of me is saying why not? I want to do it, so just do it!
The doctor has cleared me to run, and maybe if I just take it easy and make sure to stretch, ice, and foam roll I will be ok. Maybe if I just listen to my body and if or when it starts hurting, then I will stop. I have 21 weeks (152 days) until the Oklahoma City Memorial Marathon. I ran the half marathon this year, and I really want to do the full. I have been looking at marathon training plans, and I have found a few that I am considering. I just think this would be better for me than all of the junk miles I am running. I know they don’t mean anything, so maybe that’s why I’m not very motivated to do them. What are your thoughts on these training plans? Which one would recommend?
I am determined to get back to where I was, and pass it! I have a friend that is training for the same race, and she is on my case about doing it with her. (Which is what I need) So, I think this is going to be a good thing. I really think the only thing holding me back is the fear of failure. But I guess that is a risk with any goal that you set. So, I just have to tell myself if I get hurt and don’t get to run it, at least I tried.