This week was a roller coaster of emotions for me. I have had some really tough things going on at work the past couple of weeks. It’s been very emotionally draining, which in turn has been completely physically draining. And it’s probably been the hardest situation that I’ve ever been faced with professionally. It finally all came to a head this week and I had the worst day! I felt like I was being completely attacked – and I guess I was verbally. I was so mad at myself because for the first time in my life I just couldn’t stand up for myself. I knew in my head what I needed to say, but I could not formulate the words and get them out. My stomach was in knots and I felt like I was going to cry. I was so flustered and it was like I couldn’t even process what was happening. I am usually very laid back and I don’t let people get to me. I have always been able to handle every situation, even if I’m in the wrong. But this time, I was not wrong, and I couldn’t get those words out! I felt like a complete failure. I held it together until I got in my car, and then the tears came. I came home feeling defeated.
But every bad situation has a silver lining. And now the problem is fixed, and I feel like a huge weight has been lifted off of me. I don’t have to worry anymore, or be stressed when I go to work every day. But the absolute best part of all of this was the outpouring of love and encouragement that I received from my (colleagues) friends.
I got so many hugs and kind words. Those that were directly involved stood up for me every chance they got. Later that night, I was bombarded with encouraging text messages! One of them even came over to bring me my favorite dessert from our local bakery!
I cannot even describe how much everyone helped me. They helped me see that I was not a failure, and that no one thought that. I appreciate the people that I am surrounded with every day, and I’m glad they have my back – there’s not anyone better to go battle for you, than the people that love you!